Wednesday, March 12, 2014

I'm a WIP...

I am realizing I am a WIP.

At work, when we are working on a file, we have to title it "WIP" in the system to notify others that the file is a "Work in Progress" and should not be archived (kept forever safe), or deleted.
It is not useless, but it's not at it's full potential to be kept forever yet... it's at it's most active state.

I think commonly about the little mistakes or flaws I have daily and I wonder... when will I stop?

Checking my texts at red lights.
Eating too much sugar.
Not being disciplined in reading my bible.
Allowing the criticism of others to penetrate my soul.
Anxiety about not experiencing everything this life has to offer... Fear of Missing Out

I struggle with all of these and A LOT more. How great would it be to recognize a "flaw" in us, and just flip a switch so it isn't an issue anymore. But we keep doing these things over and over knowing the consequences of it. Why?

I know that if I only eat sugar all day, I will feel awful and not have energy later.
I know that if I participate in gossip, my perception of that person is tainted.
I know that if I don't fill my life with truth, lies will be able to creep in very easily.

I've prayed many times for God to help me recognize the areas in my life I need to work on. Guaranteed if you ask him that, he will be more than happy to point them out to you. But where do we go from there?

I'm slowly starting to realize, most of this (even the small stuff) cannot be done on my own strength. 
I strive and strive for this perfection, for this better version of myself, and I end up losing energy. Losing motivation.

The power lies within prayer, fellowship, and most importantly in the word of God. There is so much TRUTH in the Bible that refocuses your perspective onto what is good.
I was having a small anxiety attack (Something I've dealt with since University). Do you ever go on Facebook and feel your life seems so sad in comparison???? I quickly texted three of my friends and just said "Dealing with anxiety, I need truth!!!" Promptly, they send me scripture that, like a fast acting medication, relieved my anxieties and redirected my focus onto the bigger picture.

I am blessed.
I am loved.
I am important.
I have a purpose.
I have an adventurous future.
Great things are just around the corner!

I wouldn't of been able to get past that anxiety so quickly had I not reached out for help from God, or from friends. Salvation, and God's love, is a gift. He is standing there holding out this gift, free, for you right now but it is still your choice to recieve the gift and take it into your hands.

We can't always think "Why is my life this way" when we don't do our part. Im learning to speak to God more about the things I only keep in my mind. My insecurities, my hopes, my dreams, my desires, my worries... all of these I try to submit to God. He has never failed to show me encouragement, direction, or granted me wisdom in these situations.

I still make mistakes. I still mess up. But I know that whenever I do, there is grace and He is always there, with his hands held out with an offer to get back on your feet. I am only "In Progress" because I choose to chase after Jesus, and I am trying to let God lead me through my flaws and mistakes. 

Lets be honest, I will always be a WIP. 
Until I am made complete the day I meet Jesus face to face (archived!) haha

You were as I, tempted and tried. Human. 
The word became flesh, Bore my sin and death,
Now you're risen.
Everything I once held dear, I count it all as loss.