Monday, February 29, 2016

Building Bridges Over Peaks and Valleys

I once heard someone say that life is peaks and valleys.

Side mountain peaks are those good days, the happy days! These include the mundane like having a good hair day, catching up with a friend over coffee, or dancing in your living room (just me?)
The highest mountain peaks hold unforgettable moments like our first kiss, graduating, getting that job you wanted, your wedding day or the birth of your child.

We've all experienced peaks days in our lives. 
Yet we've also felt the valley.

Bad moods, financial burdens, sick days... you name it. We know the valley well, because it reminds us how much we miss the mountain peak. Those days when we are feeling low, frustrated, discouraged, hurt or just unworthy... We recognize this valley because we know we want to be on the mountain peak.

How do we go from mountain peak to mountain peak and avoid staying stuck in the valley?

The bridge you build simply goes from one peak to the next, skipping the valley. It's a conscious decision on those bad days to say "hey... things aren't going my way, I feel down, but I'm going to choose gratitude and joy."

Choose to dwell on the things you are thankful for.
Choose peace and let things go instead of dwelling on negative thoughts.
Choose positivity and remove complaint from your vocabulary this day.
Choose to smile, even when you don't feel like it.

Easier said than done right?
That's why you have to build the bridge. Put it to work!
The more you do this, the more you will realize these valleys are temporary.

I'm not the best bridge builder... But practice makes perfect right?

Friday, February 26, 2016

I'm Not Religious

I still remember where I was when my friend explained to me the difference between religion and a true relationship with God.

The God I knew of spoke in a shakespearean language, wanted me to recite prayers, and was too old and big to truly know me. The God I knew was boring, the pews he wanted us to sit in every Sunday were uncomfortable, and the book he wanted us to read was not even comprehendible.

The God I knew didn't want me to have fun, he was constricting and demanded that I feel guilty about who I was, that I would never live up to what he wanted, whatever that was. The God I knew only existed in church and would never be relevant to anything I was facing.
I wanted nothing to do with the God I knew. Who would?
The God I knew... doesn't exist.

When I was 21, I learned about the true God. 
I learned there was a bible that was translated in today's language and I could actually understand. I learned that when I put what was in that bible into practice... it actually worked. I saw relationships be repaired, I was able to handle bad circumstances, I finally saw a bigger picture for my life. I learned that church was fun and filled with some of the most incredible people that had true joy.. not just happiness, but a joy that surpassed their any understanding. These people had something I wanted for myself. These people are the ones I would soon call life-long friends. I learned that God was not only the lion, but he was the lamb - he is the Creator of the universe yet, he has grace and love for me. I learned God was not old and irrelevant, but that he knows the number of hairs on my head and knows my thoughts before I think them. He knows what brings joy to me, and what hurts me. He created me after all - so that only makes sense.  I learned that God loved me and that He wanted to protect me from all the things I was looking to for my identity and wanted to show me who He created me to be. I learned how He spoke creativity into me and I started stepping into my full potential as the person I was created to be. I learned that His book wasn't a list of ruled to abide by, but was guidance to protect me from the things that would distort who I truly am. I learned that God was not a God of religion, but He has been the God of relationship all along.

You see, Jesus changed it all for me.
I never understood why a man dying on a cross 2000 years ago had anything to do with me.
But what I've learned... it had everything to do with me. It has everything to do with you.

Jesus wiped the slate clean.
How could we ever have a relationship with a God who created it all. It doesn't make sense. But because of Jesus, it's possible. God made it possible. God's love covered any inequity, any sin, anything that would keep us from knowing Him.

Sitting in church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car.
Sunday's aren't this task list you have to check off every week so that "maybe if God exists and you meet him at the end of your life" he will look at your attendance and say "hmm.. yep, you're in!"
He isn't impressed by how many bible verses or prayers you memorize.
He isn't keeping a checklist of how many times you get on your knees to pray.

He sees your heart.

What if I told you, you can have a relationship with Him.
A true relationship where you communicate with one another.

The Creator of the universe. The good and perfect Father.
The One who made something so delicate and complicated as a butterfly but is creative and beautiful enough as the sunset which paints the sky pinks, purples and blues.

Just ask Him.
That's all I did.
Ask Him to show you He is real. 
Have a little faith and open your eyes and soon you will see and hear Him all around you.

Open the bible (grab a NIV or NLT version, youversion bible app or go to and start reading about this man named Jesus in the book of John.

You could be missing out on one of the most incredible gifts this life has offered you.

I had to let go of all of my questioning. If I had all the answers.. that would make me God, and that's not a responsibility I want. When I looked up at the night sky and saw the stars no man has touched I had decided... I don't have enough faith to be an atheist anymore.

This life is far too beautiful to just be "by chance".

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Wanderlust #3: God's Timing is Perfect

London, England
Generator Hostel
{05.25.15} 9pm

Change of the guards!
"The lock on my pull out drawer was broken so I had to leave my "valuables" at the front desk.

Breakfast was awful! But I ate some anyway and grabbed a "hop on hop off" ticket!

I ended up stopping first at Buckingham palace and the entire route around the palace was blocked off because there was a race that had just finished!

I walked up to the palace gates right when the change of the guard was happening (God's timing is perfect!)

I then just wandered.

I walked down into a park and got a chicken sandwich. I was feeling daring so I got it with "everything" on it which included onions, mayo, and lettuce.
Yep. Brave, I know haha

Next, I ended up walking past a beautiful war memorial and into Hyde Park!
I wanted to save the park for the next visit but the weather was beautiful so I hired a bike for the hour.

I then proceeded to get lost... kind of...

Glass Egg View of Ben!
I ended up at Kensington Palace, past some beautiful lakes with paddle boats and swans.
I caught the next "hop on" and we made our way to Big Ben!

BUT... I couldn't help myself and got a ticket for the giant wheel.

After a cheesy "4D" experience, I boarded the moving glass egg with a bunch of strangers.

The view was beautiful! I think I took 50 photos of just Ben alone!

When I got off, I wandered over to Big Ben and the government building... Taking selfies and not caring.
Selfie with Ben!
I'm amazed at how comfortable I am being by myself but I am getting sick of my own face in photos!

Westminister Abby was under construction and closed but I went up anyway.

I then took "The Tube" back to Kings Cross, had an incident where I thought I had to get off the train b/c they announced something. So I caught the next one, grabbed good ol' McDonalds, and went back to the hostel to pack for my travel day to Paris!

It was a good day.

Did I mention Ben chimed as soon as I walked up to him?

I'm reminded again.... God's timing is perfect"


Monday, February 22, 2016

5 Ways to Stay Motivated to Workout

Happy Motivation Monday!

Today I'm writing about how I stay motivated in my fitness goals!

Keeping fitness a priority has helped me deal with my anxiety levels, sleep better, have more energy and be more productive! On a normal day when I get home, I'm immediately tempted to slump on the couch. But if I get in a good workout, I somehow have more energy and get a lot more housework done!

Here are 5 ways to stay motivated to workout!

1. Find What Works for You!:
Find a way of exercising that you enjoy! Maybe you hate dancing and refuse to attend that Zumba class at the risk of embarrassing yourself. Try running! Running is great if you are goal oriented as you can track your progress and really see results if you stick to it!

APPS: My two favourite running apps are 5k Runner / Couch to 5k and Map My Run.

5k Runner: uses the same program that the Running Room uses. It's like having your own personal couch telling you when to run and when to "slow down and walk!". This is great if you are just starting to run for the first time.

Map My Run: This app keeps track of your pace, running route, and allows you to "compete" or "friend" other people doing the same thing! Your profile will show you how often you run and your progress.

2. Set Your Major & Mini Goals:
An example of a major goal would be: Run a 5k / 10k / half marathon / full marathon!
If you have a set goal to work towards, you are more likely to put in the work. Sign up for a race 4-8 weeks from now and get to work!

An example of a mini goal is those daily tasks that will help you achieve success in your major goal.

Mini goal: Get to the gym today
Mini goal: Drink 8 glasses of water today
Mini goal: Run for the full length of Justin Bieber's "Sorry" (it's got a great beat!)

3. Pinterest & Post-its:
Let's get vis-u-al, vis-u-al!
Get your fitness motivation on my starting a "work it girl" pinterest board! You may feel awful by scrolling through the unneccary amounts of "fit bod" pics but you WILL get to the good stuff like the motivational quotes, running tips, and keep your eye out for some cute running outfits!
I LOVE Post-it inspiration. I commonly put post-it's all around my apartment with quotes and bible verses that keep me in perspective and on track!

4. Be Consistent & Set Your Routine!:
Set Alarms - 10 if you have to!
I find the hardest part of exercising is getting to the gym! (or getting on that track if it's warm enough outside!) Don't be too ambitious - set aside certain mornings or evenings for gym time. Start with 2 or 3 days a week and treat it like a meeting! (You wouldn't miss an important meeting would you?)
Next, make sure you have good beats on your ipod/iphone. This is KEY to keep you motivated during your workout. (Side note: the worse thing about being on a 5k app is when the app tells you to slow down and walk... yet the music is the perfect beat for running. smh)

5. Reward Yourself:
Ah, if you've read my blog "3 Ways to Stay Motivated" for common life goals, you know I'm a fan of this one!
This one's simple... Reach a goal = Get new workout gear!
New water bottle, new sunglasses, new leggings or cute running shoes!

Now every time you put on those new shoes, you'll remember the progress you've made!
After all, what's the point in accomplishing goals if you can't have something cute to remember them by!

Get an accountibilibuddy!
This is someone who will make you terribly guilty if you don't put down that toblerone bar, turn off that Amy Winehouse doc on Netflix and get your butt to the gym...
I'm clearly speaking from experience - thanks Rachelle for the push!

I promise you - you won't regret your workout! (unless you hurt yourself.... be sure to stretch!)

Endorphins are powerful mini monsters who make you HAPPY after you put your body to use! We are meant to move.

Friday, February 19, 2016

4 Ways to Improve Your Prayer Life

When you are in a relationship with someone, do you just talk about that person to all your friends and constantly scroll through their social media feeds?

Well, if it's a real relationship (and not just stalking Ryan Gosling) hopefully the answer is no.

When you love someone, you spend time with your lovebug!
(yea, I said lovebug..)

When you desire connection with that special person, you block out time from your busy schedule and make them a priority. And when things get super busy, you still text them throughout the week even if it's little kissy emojis (admit it, you've done it too).

So.. what does this have to do with prayer?

Well, prayer is spending time with God!
And if we are in a relationship with our Maker, we must talk with Him, daily, instead of only talking about Him.

We need to make time with Him a priority instead of letting prayer be the last thing on our minds before we close our eyes at night (No judgment here, I'm completely guilty of this).

Prayer should be exciting, we get to talk to the creator of the Universe... and He listens!

Just thank about that for a moment... why wouldn't we want to do this every day?! But the truth is, sometimes it's just hard to keep prayer a priority, especially when we haven't seen it work in action.

But remember, God can't answer unprayed prayers...

Here are four ways to keep prayer a priority in your life:

1. Talk to him as a daughter/son
Talk to God as your Father, your Dad... your Papa. Don't worry about reciting the perfect prayer, but talk to Him as a Father and Friend. Be real with him and tell him how you are really feeling. Don't be afraid to ask for what you want because, like a good Father, He will not give you something unless He believes its best for you. Talk to him. Even if it's to tell Him you're feeling weak today or feeling happy or that you don't feel Him near. Whatever it is, be real with your Heavenly Father.

2. 11:11 & Elevator Rides
Find triggers to set for your prayer life.
For me, whenever I see 11:11 I make a point of praying for my mom. I've been doing this for 3 years now. Also, living in an apartment, I take the elevator everytime I leave for the day and come home. This is the perfect opportunity to pray! I have 11 floors to speak to God and dedicate my day to him in the morning and when I come home, I am able to hand over my anxieties, worries and thank Him for all that He is and has blessed me with!

Need some ideas? What about stop lights! Make every red light your prayer trigger.
When you stop, just talk to him!

3. Prayer journal
This has been one of the best things I have done in my prayer life.
I picked up a Kate Spade planner and have been using it as my prayer journal. I always start my prayer with gratitude, and finding at least one thing to thank God for before I ask for anything. This has forced me to see the beauty in every day!
Keeping a prayer journal, I am also able to look back on things I had previously prayed for (which surprisingly I forget about!) and I am able to see how God answered (or didn't answer) that prayer! I highlight the answered prayers so I can see how God is at work in my life!

4. Chalkboard Prayer Wall
I have this incredible chalkboard wall in my apartment that I walk past every day. This is where I write out my goals and my big prayer requests. It reminds me to pray about the big things in my life and offers perspective. Revisit this list every month (or every week if you're feeling productive!) You can order a chalkboard vinyl off of amazon OR just use post-its and put them in a place you will see them everyday like the bathroom mirror or your front door!

It's incredible how we could be completely blind to God's presence in our life until we start looking for Him in everything.

God desires to connect with us (no matter how long it's been since we last spoke with Him!)

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Wanderlust #2: Trust and Believe

Happy Wanderlust Wednesday!
I recently decided to backpack through England, France and Switzerland on my own. I documented my experience and the valuable lessons I learned every day in my travel journal. Every Wednesday, I will post another entry from my trip so my entire journal will be in digital form!

London, England

Russel Park

Chopped my mop and I'm headed to England!
"Wow God!
It has been 12 hours since I've arrived and You have provided, blessed, restored, revived and ignited a brand new passion in me. I had no issues moving from the airport to the hostel. Okay, I may have walked too far but ironically I came across a street sign that said "Huntley Street!". 

I went to Hillsong London WAY too early, however, because of that I made some amazing friends. I didn't even think to take photos with them, that's how much fun it was. We ate at a restaurant that booked their entire lower floor out for Hillsong-goers. I had to order "chips" hehe.

I quickly ran back to the hostel, got in my room and even though I couldn't find it at first, I am happy with the room.
I've only met one person so far so I pray that goes well.

I can't get over how awesome You are God!

I've already been reminded that all I have to do is trust and believe because You can and You will!

I pray these two weeks bring us ever closer. I pray Lord that I can obtain a better understanding of your love for me. 


So British! 

I'm sitting on a park bench in London, England writing this!

I'm SO not brave enough for this. I am not strong enough... BUT You are in me!

I don't feel scared. I don't feel weak. I don't feel insufficient.

I am enough because you are all I need and I have You."

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Morning Devotional: Jesus Calling

My friend Bonnie recently lent me her devotional "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. If you have a hard time putting aside time for devotionals, this may be perfect for you!

Every day, you read a short paragraph of what Jesus is saying to you. It's a paraphrase of a few verses in the bible which are referenced at the bottom of each page for further study.

This devotional has pulled me out of a tough season. It seems every day I open this devotional, I am learning and hearing God speak right into my situation!

I wanted to go deeper with yesterday's reading so I decided to break down the main points and record my thoughts.


"Come to Me with all your weaknesses"

I love this about Jesus! I don't have to have it all together to approach his throne. I have failings, mistakes and insecurities that I can list for days but with Jesus, He accepts me with open arms...  just as I am.

"Rest in the comfort of My presence"

I deal with anxiety and it's something I've been more conscious of lately. I fall into these bad moods because I convince myself of what other people are thinking and have imaginary fights in my head when I think something is unfair. My thoughts rule me sometimes so this point of resting in the comfort of His presence is an action I need to take seriously. Resting is not a feeling, it's an action. When I rest, I put aside the noise, I turn off my electronics, and I remove my focus from the worries of my day. When I rest in His presence, this means refocusing on Jesus and resting in His love and purpose for me. How beautiful is that.

"Nothing is impossible with Me"

This has been a difficult one for me to understand.
Nothing? If nothing is impossible than why... (fill in the blank of unanswered prayer request). This Truth causes me make a decision to trust God and who He is - the Creator of the universe.
I believe nothing is impossible for Him, which is why I need to trust that He is only providing His best for me, in His perfect timing (which isn't necessarily mine).

"Pry your mind away from your problems; focus on Me"

Relationships. Finances. Career. Family. School. Health.
Again, this is an action. I must be conscious of my thoughts. Think about what I am thinking about. If I am dwelling on what I don't have, I am not focusing on Him. I need to step into a thought life of gratitude - seeing the blessings around me, God in action.
I need to focus on Him.

"I am able to do immeasurably more than all you ask or imagine"

Yes! How incredible and majestic is this truth?!
I believe this because I have seen it in action in my life.
Again, I must step into trusting Who God is and focus on all he has done, and pray for all He can do in my life if I am obedient and focus on Him! I must move away from my doubts, insecurities, my plans and dreams. If I trust He is the loving Father I know Him to be, His plans have got to be 1000% better than anything I can come up with!

"See what I am already doing"

I mentioned this above - focusing on what God has already done.
How beautiful life is when we see all that has been provided to us by our loving Father.

"I am your shepherd"

I can't do life alone. I need guidance and direction. This is where I tune into the word of God and seek His light for my path. Psalm 119:105 says "Your word is a lamp for my feet, and a light on my path." This doesn't mean He is going to light up the whole path, but will give light to just enough space in front of me so that I can step in confidence, but will continue to trust Him for the journey. It's a beautiful walk of faith when He reveals His plan one step at a time.

"I am taking care of you; therefore, you needn't be afraid of anything"

I get stuck in the trap of comparison. When you see your friends buying houses, new cars, travelling, getting married, you can't help but feel you don't measure up to the standard of where "you should be" according to the world. Yet, when I look at all that has been provided to me, and focus on the blessings active in my life, it is undeniable that my God is providing for me and I can trust that He will continue to do so in the future.

"Lose control, abandon yourself to My will"

Ah, abandoning my dreams and goals and surrendering to God's will is definitely difficult when you aren't sure what His will consists of! I have to be willing to follow His plan. If that light on my path takes a sudden right turn, I need to be ready and willing. I need to trust.

"It might be scary, but you're safest in My will"

Being a Christian isn't comfortable.
In fact, if you are a comfortable Christian, you may be doing this thing wrong.
God calls us to a life of self sacrifice and willingness to become more like Jesus every day. This is not a comfortable process. If you look at the life of Jesus, He definitely wasn't comfortable. This journey can be scary but I do trust that I am much safer in the arms of my Saviour than anywhere else.

Monday, February 15, 2016

3 Ways to Stay Motivated

Ah Mondays.

Working as a social media lead for a television station, distribution company and a tv show, I'm very in tune with the daily trending topics on Twitter and Instagram.
#MondayMotivation is always a fun one! 

In my life, currently my Monday hashtag is #MastersMonday! 

My new typical Monday is 8 hours of work, 1 hour of driving, 4 hours of class engaging in theological discussion, 1 more hour of driving home, and then usually me giving into my peanut butter and jelly sandwich craving at 11pm before bedtime!

I've been asked quite a few times how I stay motivated and on top of everything so I thought I would share a few tips on how to stay motivated with my current long-term goal of pursuing my Masters (with short-term deadlines!) and hopefully it will help you too!

Tip 1: Purpose Not Perfection

Ask yourself "what is the purpose of this goal?"

You may have read my previous blog "Purpose Not Perfection" but if you haven't, this is a lesson that is new to me in 2016! "Purpose" is the word I chose to live by this year and it's allowed me to ask myself "what is the purpose of this and how do I accomplish it?" It has also pushed me away from pursuing perfection and being okay with that!

When I think about the purpose of my pursuing my Master's program, it actually has absolutely nothing to do with my grades! The purpose is to learn and grow spiritually and intellectually in the bible. If that purpose is fulfilled, it will be reflected in my grades BUT I do not stress about my grades. Unlike University, I am finding this alone has removed a significant amount of stress from my life and has allowed me to enjoy the process of my education!

Tip 2: Post Away!

Get social and post your short-term accomplishments online!

Okay, okay, we all have those friends who post too much on social media about how amazing their life is BUT I do believe that your family and friends want to hear about your life! Especially if you are going after a big goal and you don't necessarily have a direct support system around you. Don't go overboard, but post about your short term accomplishments and I guarantee you will see support flow in. It shows you that people are rooting for you and they believe in you!

Tip 3: Reward Yourself!

Celebrate the victories & pamper yourself!

Ah yes.
Because what good is accomplishing the short-term goals without a little reward?!

I've made a decision to reward myself once a month. Whether it be to get my nails done, get a massage, or go shopping for some new clothes, this makes me feel like I am not just consumed with work and studies but that I am enjoying the fruit of my labour!

I've written this one down on my chalkboard wall in my apartment to be reminded as life gets busy and it's VERY easy to ignore this one. Prioritize time with a friend, go out for dinner, go to the movies, do some online shopping - whatever it is, do something that makes you smile and takes your mind off the heavy to-do list... at least for a little while.

xo sc

Read "Purpose Not Perfection"

Friday, February 12, 2016

Old Navy Miracle Shoes!

Happy Fashion Friday!

Okay - I'm not a fashionista BUT pinching pennies to pay rent and put myself through my Masters program, a girl's gotta celebrate when miracle shoes happen!

Yep, you heard me.

M i r a c l e  s h o e s .

Doesn't it sound beautiful?

I work in television which means I work with people who have to maintain a pretty extensive  wardrobe to stay current on air. Did I mention we are live-to-air every day during the week?!

Our make-up artist saw these beautiful shoes on clearance at Old Navy for $0.97
Nope - I did NOT make a mistake in placing the decimal there.

97 cents my friend! Before taxes ;)

I don't know if I've EVER seen shoes drop that low in price! Especially cute grey booties like these!

Of course being the genius she is, our make-up artist quickly grabbed them off the shelf having in mind one of our co-hosts!

(Un)fortunately, the shoes didn't fit our co-host... but guess who was next in line for having big feet!

That's right - for being 5'9 (okay, okay 5'10) I have size 10 feet which means I get the ugly shoe aisle for the majority of my adult life. It's a bit difficult for me to find cute shoes... especially ones that won't hurt me. (tall girls... you get me)

I made my way down to the make up room, like cinderella I slipped the beautiful grey bootie on my right foot and VOILA!

The shoe fit!

Not ONLY did it fit - it was completely comfortable and looked great!

With a little suggestion from my friend who works in the fashion industry, I paired them with loose ripped jeans rolled up and layered a loose T with a blanket scarf and these miracle shoes made me feel like a million bucks!

Well, at least definitely more than the $0.97 I paid the make-up artist for them!

I have to say, I feel blessed every day - but boy when blessings come in the form of cute grey booties... It's a good day.

Miracle shoes, I'm telling you!


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Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Wanderlust #1: Go with God

 I've wanted to travel through Europe for a while now but waiting for the perfect travel companion seemed to be unproductive so... last year I decided to be brave and backpack through Europe on my own for 16 days.

It now seems like a dream because the only one who keeps those memories.... is me and the good Lord!

I wrote down, almost every day, my experiences so I wouldn't forget the valuable lessons I received from my travels. 

Every Wednesday I will be copying one of my journal entries and adding current reflections so eventually, my Wanderlust Journal will be in digital form!

xo sc

Toronto, Ontario > London, England


Dany, Jayden & me at the Toronto Airport
"I already feel the power of my eGroup girl's prayers! I had an amazing dinner with mom and dad. My sister-in-law Dany and nephew Jayden visited us before Dany's shift. She works for Air Canada, so it worked out perfectly!

Jay is SO SWEET! Pointing up in the sky saying "airplane go high!" 

I got through the not-so-stressful security check no problem. Dany came by again to see me off, reminiscing of her own Europe adventures. I knew this was going to be a trip I wouldn't forget.

Dany is genuinely excited for me. It's so nice to have family that supports and loves you when you make crazy decisions like travelling to a foreign country on your own!

She only had a quick break, so she had to leave but the last thing she says before leaving, with a huge smile on her face...

"Go with God"

My response: "I will"

I can't wait to see how this adventure will grow me. Mentally, physically, emotionally, but most of all spiritually!

Time to board!"

My brother's backpack.
Had to add the girly flower. He wasn't impressed.
Dad with my nephew Jayden at the Toronto Airport

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Faith Fuel & Safety Nets

Lately my pink mac laptop has become my best friend.

Working in social media, writing papers and studying for my Masters doesn't allow a lot of 
time for connection.

When I chose to go back to school, I knew I had to sacrifice something. 

What I didn't expect is how it would effect my faith.

I went from leading a bible study at my church with an incredible group of girls, to not being able to even attend the bible study. Due to workload and schedule conflicts, skyping in wasn't even an option anymore. 

At first, I didn't notice a difference. What I wasn't aware of is that my safety net and my accountability was removed, which left a great opportunity for the enemy to sneak in and slowly start to skew my thinking.

It's like quick sand. You don't realize how deep you are until you try to get out of it.

My anxiety has proven to be stronger lately. It overtakes my thinking and convinces me that I am not strong enough, not rich enough, not good enough. It's the strongest in the mornings when I'm walking into work and I'm flooded with all my insecurities - financially, relationally, professionally, you name it. 

I didn't realize how surrounding myself with Christian women who were facing similar struggles and successes was offering me perspective week to week.

I didn't realize how having a simple conversation every Wednesday about the goodness and faithfulness of Jesus was feeding into my heart "faith fuel" to face difficult situations with confidence.

I didn't realize how doing Church wasn't just walking into that building on Sunday, but maintaining a connection throughout the week with my eFamily (Attending Elevation Church, we have eGroups so I refer to my church family as my eFamily. Fitting.

Someone once explained to me that having family that prays for you, is like a safety net which forms under you. It doesn't stop you from experiencing the fall, but it softens the landing so you can get back up quicker.

My Church is my spiritual family and I rely on them for my safety net. When I couldn't attend bible study, that safety net was removed and when I fell, I fell hard.

I may not have people building that safety net of prayer for me every week anymore, but that doesn't mean I can't build it myself.

You see, the biggest part of this was that I wasn't taking my faith into my own hands. 

I thought my faith would stay afloat through the changes but I was mistaken. 

Pursuing my Masters would mean I would have to fight for time with God, fight to keep focus on him, and fight to pray when I didn't feel like praying.

As January hit, it was a moment of reflection and fresh starts.

I knew exactly what I needed to do - create a new routine that would allow me time with Him first.

My friend lent me "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. This devotional, along with reading one Psalm a day and keeping a daily prayer journal, has ensured I am spending time in God's word and refueling my faith.

Today's devotional was powerful and speaks to everything I've been facing:

"Seek my face more and more. You are really just beginning your journey of intimacy with Me. It is not an easy road, but it is a delightful and privileged way: a treasure hunt. I am the Treasure, and the Glory of My Presence glistens and shimmers along the way. Hardships are part of the journey too. I mete them out ever so carefully, in just the right dosage, with a tenderness you can hardly imagine. Do not recoil from afflictions, since they are among My most favoured gifts. Trust Me and don't be afraid, for I am your strength and Song"

Maintaining a relationship with Christ may be able to stay afloat through routine, but purpose prevails. When the routine falls through, it's time to refocus, prioritize and actively seek Him above all the noise of this world.