Monday, October 16, 2017

Not as I Will

I've always struggled between praying for the things I want, and praying for the things God wants.

In Matthew 26, Jesus modelling a beautiful way to pray to our Creator. Before Jesus was arrested, he took the disciples to a place called Gethsemane. He turned to Peter and said:"My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death".

 Jesus was in pain. He was beginning to feel the weight of what was before him. He fell to the ground and began to pray:
"My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet, not as I will, but as you will."
1. Jesus was honest.
We must first be honest. Bring our pain and our hurt to God. Lay it all out on the floor and look to him to relieve it. Ask him for help. We know he can heal us, provide for us, rescue us so we can ask him to intervene. We have a good father, and He wants us to turn to him for help rather than this world.

2. Jesus went back to pray three times.
We need to get into the habit of continual prayer. There are things I've had to pray for once, and it was provided (peace). But then there are things that I have been praying for years about, and still waiting on God. We need to keep reaching out to God for his help and trust that He hears his children.

3. Jesus trusted his Father.
The most beautiful part of Jesus' prayer was "Yet, not as I will, but as you will." Jesus did not just ask God to remove this cup of suffering from him... he re-established his trust in his Father at the end of each prayer. He did not discount his own wants and needs, he made sure to voice them, but he ended his prayers with the very foundation of our faith -- trusting in the One who has the bigger picture in the palm of his hands.

Could you imagine if God answered Jesus?
There wouldn't be a cross.

What are some prayers God is not answering for you? Is it possible, He has something better, more beautiful, and magnificent planned?

I pray I get into a this posture - that although my prayers are asking God to move in ways I need him to, I will establish complete trust in His plan. I know He hears my prayers -

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Casting All Anxiety

What does it mean to cast your anxiety? 
When we cast our fishing line, we first pull it back and toss it forward with a location in mind. 

Similar to our anxieties, we must first pull them back - examine what you are anxious about. 

Ask yourself the tough questions like "what is the worst possible thing that could happen here?" Or "if this never changes, can I still live a fulfilled life?" - once you've unpacked the core of why you're feeling anxious... toss it forward to Jesus. 

With your eyes on Him, propel your worries and sorrows towards Him. Let it go. 
Don't let those worries have a place in your boat any longer! Trust Him with your worries for he cares for you. 

Let go of what is weighing your boat down and walk in the freedom of faith in Christ.

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Give God His Job Back

Is there something you are relying on others for which you should be receiving from God? 

We tend to place all our expectations on people and we crash hard when they don't pull through for us. 

Give God his job back! 

He is waiting with arms wide open ready to take you in with His abundant grace and remind you that He loves and takes care of His children. 

When we place our hope and trust in Him, we will never crash. He may redirect us and at times it may not be clear how He is guiding us, but when you look back at your life - the evidence is clear - he has never left you nor forsaken you. 

God is here. 
Jesus is near. 
And your heart is safe in His hands 

Sunday, October 8, 2017

He Didn't Bring You This Far Just to Leave You

Life isn't always how we dreamed it would be when we were 12... 

sometimes it is so much more. 
Sometimes it is so much harder than we imagined. 

In those times when we feel the walls are caving in, we need to throw our hands in the air and praise the One who has brought us to where we are today... 

because there is no way our God brought you this far just to leave you. 

Have faith. 
His plan may be completely different, but the Creator of the universe knows you more than you know yourself and he has beautiful plans for his children. 

We need only to turn our eyes and our hearts to hear his guiding voice to direct our next step.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Living Loved

I fail every day to live loved. 

There seems to be this longing within us that is never fully satisfied because we know people never measure up to the need of our hearts. 

Not only do people fail us, but we tend to disappoint others too. Our love can never fully satisfy one another because it is not whole.

It may seem like a cliché but only God's love can satisfy. When we look to other humans to feel wanted, loved, and acknowledged, we just can't seem to grasp onto lasting, full, unconditional love. It's just in our nature. 

I am so thankful that True Love has been displayed and modelled in the person of Jesus Christ. That no matter how much we may feel rejected, or set aside, that God has made a public declaration of His eternal love for you and me. It's there. Right in front of you. But we forget because we often turn to people for affirmation quicker than our Maker. 

This week, choose to operate from the assurance of His eternal love for you and notice just how the burden and weight can be lifted from your relationships. 

Monday, March 6, 2017

Fight Well with God

When I first found my faith, I never understood when people said they were "mad at God" or "fought with God". Now, much later in my faith journey, I understand that all too well. 

When you trust someone but don't necessarily understand them all the time, it can be frustrating. Like all good relationships and marriages, you need to learn to fight well.

I'm free to argue with God by praying through how I feel, letting Him know why I'm angry or upset and not hold back... but the deal is that I then have to listen. 

I need to be willing to hear from Him, to seek His word and open my heart to His response. I only have one side of the story and most of the time the very thing I feel frustrated about, He reminds me that through it all, He has been protecting me from less than His best. 

It's okay to fight with God, 

we just need to learn to fight well.

Friday, March 3, 2017

Am I Trusting in God, or am I Trying to be God?

I find myself asking this question when I want to take things into my own hands. 

Injustice, unfairness, when you feel wronged or when something is within your grasp. I tend to jump at the opportunity to try to fix it all, when in reality I fail every time and end up making a bigger mess. 

How much of my thoughts, my actions, my relationships are me trusting God and how much of it is me trying to be God? 

I tend to not like being out of control so this is a question that I need to consciously ask myself in tough situations. 

I need to learn to take a step back and let God be God and know in my heart that He sees it all. I need to know that I am loved, forgiven, and cherished regardless of how others treat me.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Where God Guides, He Provides

Making a big life decision isn't always easy... 

even when God is giving you all the green lights, sometimes you still let you get in the way of His amazing plans. 

Our anxieties, overthinking, pride, or even fear of the unknown stops us from fully trusting in the One whom wants to hold our heart. 

I'm learning more that trusting God is so much harder than I originally thought. 

I get into my head and start to turn inward, doubting what I've heard from Him. 

"What if I'm wrong? 

What if I'm making a mistake? 

What if God isn't telling me that at all and I'm just making it up?" 

There is a passage in the bible that says "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me" - John 10:27. How much do you know your shepherds voice? 

I know that the more time I spend on my relationship with Jesus, the better I will become at recognizing his voice. I don't want to be a wandering sheep! 

That's something I'm going to work on this year - I want to better identify my shepherd's voice so I can build my trust in his guidance for my life. - oh and in the end, listening to His still small voice for that big life change is turning out to be one of the most beautiful gifts God has provided.

Monday, February 27, 2017

My Word of 2017: Preparation

Every new year at church we choose a word for the year ahead. 

Last year I choose the word "Purpose" which allowed me to question a lot of relationships, anxieties, and decisions I've made. Focusing on purpose essentially was like putting a giant mirror up to my life, piece by piece, and asking "what is the purpose of _______?" 

This year, I chose a word that is a direct reflection of the stage of life I am in. 

With a current job change, being half way done my Masters, and getting ready to move into the city, the word "Preparation" seemed fitting. 

This year, no matter the anxieties or challenges that come my way, I am choosing to see them as growing opportunities. Like a farmer labouring in the field, planting seed in the ground, so is my 2017. 

I will strategically sow spiritually, emotionally, relationally and physically so that in 2018, I can look back on this year and see the growth. 

I don't know what this year has for me, 

but I know Who will guide me through it all.

Friday, February 24, 2017

Keep This in Your Heart

A little reminder that you were made for greater things 

than to dwell on what others say about you, 

because our God says you are fearfully and wonderfully made. 

Keep that in your heart.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

When You Face Your Fears, They Get Smaller Every Time

My biggest enemy is sometimes myself. 

I don't mean that in a self-deprecating way, but rather that I'm acknowledging my weakness in not always fully trusting God. 

He puts these opportunities in front of me but I convince myself I'm far too weak to jump in. I convince myself that He's got it all wrong -- that the open door in front of me is not for me to walk through. 

I convince myself that my skills and strengths are better used in my comfort zone, not in the land of the unknown. 

Cheryl Weber is someone I've considered a friend and mentor for the last 5 years and she's never given up. No matter how many times I limit myself, or say I can't do it she reminds me that it has nothing to do with me. 

And she's right! 

It's all about God. 

The opportunities He places in front of me to take are not for the purpose of lifting me up to a higher place, but rather lifting HIS name. 

My fear and insecurities get the best of me, and hidden by a thick layer of pride, I've managed to avoid opportunities God has placed before me. 

But I'm on a new journey - I'm attempting to live the life God called me to. 

It's a journey of self-awareness, attempted humility and constantly checking my pride at the door.  I'm not perfect and I have a LONG way to go, but I know this is a break through to step into all He has for me. 

I will not get in the way of His good and perfect gifts!

Monday, February 20, 2017

A Question That has Held me Accountable

Two years ago I had coffee with a friend and she asked me a question that would hold me accountable: what book of the bible are you currently reading? 

Although at the time I didn't have an answer for her, that question stuck with me. 

I appreciated her asking because as Christians we should hold one another accountable to keep seeking God! So, here I am asking you. 

What book of the bible are you currently reading? 

And if you don't have an answer, reading the book of Hebrews currently has been refreshing for my soul and I highly recommend starting there!

Friday, February 17, 2017

You're the Peace that Calms the Storms Within Me

You are all my heart was searching for, 

Your love has opened up the door, 

You've entered my heart forever, 

and I will never be the same. 

I'll worship You all my days, 

this love was made to last forever, 

You're the peace that calmed the storms inside of me, 

that tore down every veil in between, 

You're the power death could not defeat. 

Lord, you are."

 - Made to Last by Derek Johnson

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

This is Not Your Permanent Destination

He holds the blueprint to your path, anticipating every obstruction and dead end you may come across. 

You took His hand years ago, entrusting your life to a King. 

But recently, you've stopped. 

You've let go of His hand. 

You can't recognize that still small voice that's been guiding you all these years anymore. 

You're stuck. 

You're focused on what's in front of you, you're missing Who is right beside you. 

Dig into His word again, discover His blueprint for your life. 

Get acquainted with His voice and be reminded that your current situation IS NOT your permanent destination. 

He has so much more ahead for you -- it's all part of the path. 

Take His hand. 

Keep walking.

Monday, February 13, 2017

Are You Willing to Move Your Feet?

Are you willing?
What if He asked you to leave your home? 

Your family? 

Your country to follow Him?.... 

Would you do it? 

Pursue a willing heart. 

You may not be there yet - willing to leave it all behind for Christ's sake - but you can start by acknowledging the things in your life that are becoming idols. 

Make a list of the things you spend the most time on day to day. 

Are your priorities how you want them to be? 

Be conscious of how you are spending your life. 

Is this what Christ died for? 


Be brave. 

Step out into the unknown. 

Take a leap of faith. 

Because you never know what incredible journey He has around the corner if only we are willing to move!