Monday, March 6, 2017

Fight Well with God

When I first found my faith, I never understood when people said they were "mad at God" or "fought with God". Now, much later in my faith journey, I understand that all too well. 

When you trust someone but don't necessarily understand them all the time, it can be frustrating. Like all good relationships and marriages, you need to learn to fight well.

I'm free to argue with God by praying through how I feel, letting Him know why I'm angry or upset and not hold back... but the deal is that I then have to listen. 

I need to be willing to hear from Him, to seek His word and open my heart to His response. I only have one side of the story and most of the time the very thing I feel frustrated about, He reminds me that through it all, He has been protecting me from less than His best. 

It's okay to fight with God, 

we just need to learn to fight well.

Friday, March 3, 2017

Am I Trusting in God, or am I Trying to be God?

I find myself asking this question when I want to take things into my own hands. 

Injustice, unfairness, when you feel wronged or when something is within your grasp. I tend to jump at the opportunity to try to fix it all, when in reality I fail every time and end up making a bigger mess. 

How much of my thoughts, my actions, my relationships are me trusting God and how much of it is me trying to be God? 

I tend to not like being out of control so this is a question that I need to consciously ask myself in tough situations. 

I need to learn to take a step back and let God be God and know in my heart that He sees it all. I need to know that I am loved, forgiven, and cherished regardless of how others treat me.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Where God Guides, He Provides

Making a big life decision isn't always easy... 

even when God is giving you all the green lights, sometimes you still let you get in the way of His amazing plans. 

Our anxieties, overthinking, pride, or even fear of the unknown stops us from fully trusting in the One whom wants to hold our heart. 

I'm learning more that trusting God is so much harder than I originally thought. 

I get into my head and start to turn inward, doubting what I've heard from Him. 

"What if I'm wrong? 

What if I'm making a mistake? 

What if God isn't telling me that at all and I'm just making it up?" 

There is a passage in the bible that says "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me" - John 10:27. How much do you know your shepherds voice? 

I know that the more time I spend on my relationship with Jesus, the better I will become at recognizing his voice. I don't want to be a wandering sheep! 

That's something I'm going to work on this year - I want to better identify my shepherd's voice so I can build my trust in his guidance for my life. - oh and in the end, listening to His still small voice for that big life change is turning out to be one of the most beautiful gifts God has provided.